Hair Manifesto : Month 1

Last February…when I got the news that I was going to have to go through chemo…like most girls the first thing that entered my head was my hair.  I loved my hair. It’s the honest truth.  The idea of losing it was nothing short of horrible.  How was I going to feel pretty?  What was Gary going to think?  Call it vain but that’s how I felt.  I would take all the sickness and other crap that comes along with it…if I could just keep my hair.  🙁

 

But…that wasn’t in the cards for me.  I remember seeing myself without hair for the first time and feeling kind of numb.  It’s really hard to be 26 and have your looks taken away from you…or at least I thought.  As the days went by something really unexpected happened.  I didn’t mind it.  Sure…it wasn’t what I would have picked for myself but under the circumstances it was alright.  Actually…on some days I even liked it.  This whole experience has really taught me a lot about myself…a lot about making the most out of what seems like the worst.  And most of all it has taught me a lot about what it means to feel beautiful…

 

Today I am going in for my first hair cut since this whole ordeal started.  This may not seem like a big deal to most people but to me it’s that little glimmer that life is getting back to normal.  A little sliver of happiness that screams I did it.  It’s just a hair cut…but it feels like a giant leap towards what’s next.  And that makes me happier than you can ever know.

 

Thinking back to February makes me feel a little proud.  Proud that I went through something so big and as I sit here right now feels so small.  And that’s a feeling that I don’t want to forget.  So as I spend this next year making my way back to my former self…I’m going to document it.  Month by month…a little manifesto of my hair to, if nothing else, remind me of the unexpected.  Remind me to appreciate the little things…like wind in your hair…and ponytails.  And to remind me that life is always what you make of it…

 

Here’s to month 1…

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  • Kinzie - October 25, 2012 - 7:16 am

    You are so beautiful. Love this adventure– but golly, you look gorgeous with short hair!ReplyCancel

  • Emilia Jane - October 25, 2012 - 9:01 am

    You’re gorgeous with your hair any length! I mean it! And cheers to your first haircut since chemo 😀ReplyCancel

  • Lauren Fair - October 25, 2012 - 9:28 am

    You are beautiful, lady! Cheers to rocking that pixie!!ReplyCancel

  • Jackie Phillips - October 25, 2012 - 9:39 am

    I agree with Emilia! You look gorgeous! Can I also point out that you have a great brow shape! (I pay attention to brows, weird I am sure)ReplyCancel

    • laurenwakefield - October 25, 2012 - 10:39 am

      Thanks!! I just got them done! 🙂 I’m the same way. I always notice brows.ReplyCancel

  • Maureen - October 25, 2012 - 10:18 am

    You are beautiful!!! Thanks for sharing your hair journey with us 🙂ReplyCancel

  • Josie kay - October 25, 2012 - 10:25 am

    You look chic girlfriend!!!ReplyCancel

  • Deb Coffing - October 25, 2012 - 10:59 am

    Lauren,

    In reading your blogs….seeing your photography – I don’t think it matters if your hair is short or long or no hair at all. I can tell you are beautiful.ReplyCancel

  • Alyssa Turner - October 25, 2012 - 12:01 pm

    Absolutely beautiful! I am looking forward to seeing all the stages!ReplyCancel

  • Melissa - October 25, 2012 - 12:37 pm

    Hair…or no hair…you are beautiful. Embrace life Lauren – I admire you and all that you have been through.ReplyCancel

  • Kare - October 25, 2012 - 2:33 pm

    Beautiful!ReplyCancel

  • Faria Munmun - October 25, 2012 - 4:45 pm

    I learned last night from I think Justin and Mary’s blog about this. So sorry. You are brave, strong and beautiful! You are an inspiration to all of us.ReplyCancel

  • Jacqui Cole - October 25, 2012 - 7:30 pm

    I love love loooooove your hair like that! Even though it’s circumstantial you ROCK it!! looking so gorge Lauren 🙂ReplyCancel

  • LEOLAK - October 25, 2012 - 8:31 pm

    Gorgeous!!! You are simply glowing! Congrats!ReplyCancel

  • Shelley Duckett - October 25, 2012 - 9:50 pm

    Dear Lauren,
    I recently started reading your blog! I love your honesty and hearing about your journey. I feel like such an idiot for not realizing all you had been going through… I remember being a 6th grader and being in All School Choir at NAPA with you. You were an 8th grader that I so looked up to and wanted to be like. Then, years later, I was a sophomore and looked up to you as a senior in Mystiques! Now, it seems I still admire you! You are awesome! 🙂 And you look fab! Happy birthday, girl! 🙂ReplyCancel

    • laurenwakefield - October 26, 2012 - 7:53 am

      Aw thanks Shelley. You are so sweet. You were always one of my favs. 🙂 If you’re ever in Chicago give me a call and we can grab a drink!ReplyCancel

  • Leah - October 26, 2012 - 8:16 am

    I found you through Christy Tyler’s blog…I don’t know how I found her :). Anyways I just wanted to tell you the short hair looks awesome! I vary my hair between super long and super short, pluses to both. Enjoy not having to get tangles out and the little amount of shampoo you need.

    Keep up the great work! Love your stuff!ReplyCancel

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