If you haven’t noticed…there is a sort of theme this week on the blog.  We had bad day Monday…followed by feel bad for myself Tuesday…followed by get over it Wednesday.  I decided why not keep the trend going??  So I am calling today…things to be happy about Thursday.

 

A little tidbit I didn’t mention about Monday was after the whole disaster with my email…I got a call from Gary that he had been rushed to the hospital from work.  He didn’t tell me much on the phone except that an ambulance took him and he was having chest pains.  But from the sound of his voice on the phone I knew he was not OK.  My best friend, Sidne, was at my house because we had a photo shoot scheduled for our big project we’re working on.  We had a photographer and makeup artist en route and I rushed out the door promising her I would be back in time.  I have a really hard time canceling on people.  Even when my husband is in the hospital.  Long story short…Gary was having some severe chest pains at work and got dizzy and they called an ambulance.  He spent Monday night in the hospital while they ran test after test to rule out any life threatening conditions and Tuesday afternoon he was released with a clean bill of health.  We’re still not sure what happened on Monday but we left Tuesday knowing it was nothing too scary.  My point being…lost emails seem pretty insignificant when you spend a 20 minute cab ride to the hospital thinking your husband had a heart attack.  Funny how the Universe works.  And yesterday when I decided to “get over it”…I realized there are way more things to be happy about than there are to dwell on.  So here it goes.

 

  • My healthy husband.
  • My best friend who showed up at the hospital with incognito cups of wine.  After my day I couldn’t have possibly loved her more.
  • Fall weather.  Yep…I’m ready.  We even made chili last night.  It was glorious.
  • Gary being home these last few days.  Makes me feel like we’re on a little staycation.
  • Edible arrangements.  Gary’s work sent one to him and man that is such a genius idea.  Chocolate covered apples…my new jam.
  • Friends who show up at the hospital with the biggest bag of junk food you’ve ever seen.  Heart attack shmart attack.  We love you Lola!
  • Revenge.  The show not the act.  :) Gary and I are VERY into it.
  • Everyone who sent me a message or a left a comment or reached out in any way these last few days.  I’m a lucky girl.
  • Starbucks Iced coffee.  We all know I love a good trip to Starbucks.  But the iced coffee you buy at the grocery store is seriously my new addiction!
  • My mom.  She drove up from Indy just because.  She’s a keeper.
  • Sleep.  Between Sunday night and Monday night I got about 10 hours of sleep.  So I basically slept for 20 hours on Tuesday and it was magical.  It’s amazing what sleep depravation can do to your state of mind.
  • Life in general.  Bad days are necessary to make the good ones that much better.  Let’s make today great.

 

I’ll leave with a photo of two of my favorites.  If this doesn’t make you happy…I don’t know what will.  :)

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  • laurenwakefield - September 11, 2014 - 10:55 am
  • Ravyn - September 11, 2014 - 2:02 pm

    I am so glad everything is okay!! Also, I love seeing “husband” in your posts! :)ReplyCancel

Well…it’s no secret that it’s been quite the week around here.  After my complete meltdown on Monday it was like the Universe was playing a mean joke on me and dealing me one bad hand after another.  Sort of like when you say…”could this day get any worse?”  And then it does.  And any second that I wasn’t physically doing something my mind immediately went back to that sickening feeling of knowing the endless abyss of emails were waiting for me.  It was a vicious cycle.

 

But last night I took my computer to the couch and sat down with a glass of wine.  I started responding to emails while simultaneously watching my new favorite show…Revenge.  I started to tell Gary about how sick this whole situation was making me feel but then I just let myself escape into my own thoughts for a second.  It started with a pity party but I only let myself stay there for a minute.  Then it made a detour into the ‘tomorrow is a new day-positivity‘ part of my brain.  Then ultimately landed in the ‘everything happens for a reason‘ area.  I thought about these last few years.  How many opportunities I missed because of this whole debacle.  How much more stability could possibly be in my life right now had I gotten those emails.  But then I thought about my wedding.  And if I had been any busier last year I never would have had the time to make it everything it was.  And at the end of all these thoughts I landed on life right now.  How for the first time in a long time I feel like I am right where I need to be.  Doing what I love and working on something big that I know is going to change a lot of people’s world.  And for the first time in days I felt a little relief.

 

This week has been horrible.  Like really bad.  But if I take my mind off what is done.  Off of the past and things I can’t change.  The future is still just as exciting as it was before.  Sometimes it can be tricky to see the silver lining.  To focus on the good when there is so much bad.  But if you really try…I mean really try…it is there.  It is always there.  Something.  Something you can latch onto that lets you know everything is going to be OK.  Because when you change the way you look at things…the things you look at change.

 

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Every year it always comes at the perfect time.  Right when the days seem to be extra long and busy is a word we don’t even say because we’re too busy.  When life seems to be piling up in every direction and time together is a rare thing.  Every year our trip to Scituate is one of our favorite weekends of the year.  No matter what it’s always the perfect weekend because we get to spend it with one of our favorite families in the entire world.  And no matter what…I leave completely refreshed and ready to take on whatever is ahead.  Cara and Shane are the kind of friends that come around once in a lifetime and no amount of blog posts or words could ever describe just how much they mean to us.  And this past weekend was just what we needed…a good dose of Belvin.

 

Here’s a little look at our perfectly Scituated weekend.  Chock full of oysters and boat rides and beach time and countless hours of priceless conversations with best friends.  Cara and Shane…in case I don’t say it enough…I honestly don’t know where I would be without you guys.  Here’s to changing the world one late night convo at a time.

 

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  • Christy Tyler - September 9, 2014 - 11:44 am

    Your manicures last longer than any manicures I’ve ever seen!! That is all. :)ReplyCancel

We decided the 6am flight was worth it because that meant more time spent with some of our favorite people.  As my alarm went off at 3:30am this morning I hated the fact that I had to get up…but couldn’t help but smile at the amazing weekend we had just had.  We made our way to the airport and walked right on the plane.  I stared at the sunrise out my window and slowly drifted off into a not-so-deep plane sleep.  When the plane landed we got off…got our luggage…and made it in a cab in record time.  We creeped home through Monday morning rush-hour and I stared out the window mentally writing today’s blog post.  I was going to talk all about our weekend in Scituate and post photos of all our exciting adventures.  After an hour in traffic we made it home and I immediately ran right into my office and sat down to blog.

 

I clicked my “Blog Admin” bookmark and my WordPress login screen popped up.  I typed in my password and was greeted with the familiar home screen of my blog dashboard.  Except there was an unfamiliar notification at the top that read…

 

You have 10 or more new messages in your contact form log. You may want to view your contact form log and make sure you’ve received all of the leads via email.”

 

My stomach immediately dropped to the floor and I felt like I was going to choke on my own throat.  I sat there with a blank stare unwilling to click on the contact log because the enormous knot in my stomach told me exactly what I was going to find.  Once I finally got the courage what I saw literally sent me into a full scale panic attack.  YEARS!  YEARS of messages that I never knew existed.  Potential brides inquiring for their weddings.  Photographers reaching out for help.  Bridal magazines asking to feature my work.  Blogs asking me to guest blog.  People wanting family sessions…headshots…engagement photos.  Message after message left unanswered because I had no idea they existed.  I immediately broke down.  And not just a little bit…but big, ugly tears that rarely make an appearance around here.  I started responding as fast as humanly possible to as many messages as I could and as the list kept going and going and going I just cried harder and called Gary.  It was a moment of complete and utter defeat and I had no idea what to do.  If I’m being really honest…I still don’t.

 

But I do want to say to anyone who has contacted me and not received a response…I am SO SO SO SO sorry!  I promise I will respond to every message I got today even if it is two years later.  I have no idea what happened to WordPress or Prophoto or the black hole of the internet…but after I’m done melting down I will sure as hell be finding out.  But in the meantime please accept my sincerest apology and trust me when I say this will NEVER happen again.  Be sure to check back tomorrow for more regularly scheduled programming…but right now I have some emailing to attend to.

 

Dear internet…please forgive me.

 

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I knelt down in the front to stay as hidden as possible. I didn’t want to interrupt anyone’s view of their day.  I watched Praveen make his way down the aisle with the biggest smile on his face.  Arm in arm with his mom and dad.  As sonja rounded the corner I could hear the sniffles of the bridesmaids behind me.  All crying tears of joy for their best friend.  I watched her father stare lovingly at her as they walked side by side.  Also letting a few tears of utter happiness fall for his little girl.  Finally…Sonja made her way to Praveen and he looked at her with this twinkle in his eye that was unmistakable.  The look of unconditional love.  As they walked up to the altar hand in hand, smiles and tears surrounded them.  And a few tears started to well up in my eyes.  Which if anyone knows me is very rare…but something about this day was different.  There was this happiness and love between them that could bring even the toughest to tears.  A happiness that was felt by every person there.  And a love that is and always will be absolutely beautiful.

 

Sonja and Praveen…I honestly don’t know how to put into words how thankful I am to have been a part of your day.  It was one of the most beautiful, moving, love-filled, fun days I have ever been a part of and it still gives me the warm and fuzzies when I think about it.  You are both such amazing and kind people and together you are truly the prefect couple.  Your families and friends are a testament to how exceptional you both are and I am SO grateful to have met you.  THANK YOU!  From the bottom of my heart.  Love you both!!!!!

 

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A HUGE, ENORMOUS thank you to Tami Paige for driving to Iowa with me and completely rocking out this wedding!!!!!

And a giant thank you to all the vendors that made this day happen:

Venue: The RiverCenter  |  Hair/Makeup: Beauty ‘n the Bride  |  Florist: Milan Flower Shop – Damien  |  DJ: Shaadi Entertainment  |  Dress Brand: Modeca/Oriel