I sat at my desk staring at the steam float past my window. Whenever the dryer is on it looks like it is raining clouds outside. I let myself get lost for a minute as I tried to turn my mind off. Just staring. Finally I brought my attention back to my computer screen and stared at the blinking cursor. Being away from my office these last few days have my to-do lists running through my head a million miles a minute. There’s nothing worse than your routine being interrupted and not having the time to get it back on track. Ok…there are a lot of things that are worse than that…but you know. So I sat…staring…trying to come up with something amazing to write about today. Trying to push the thoughts that sometimes get stuck underneath the noise to the surface and I just couldn’t.
But what I ultimately decided is that it’s OK. It’s OK to have not have it together. It’s OK to not have the perfect words to make up the perfect post. It’s OK to be doing laundry because you are out of clean clothes. Like completely out. It’s OK to give yourself a break every once in a while because no matter how much we tell ourselves we are capable of…we are still human. Not writing a blog post that is mind-blowing doesn’t make me less of a blogger…it just means I have a million other things that are stealing my attention. Not waking up right at 7am doesn’t mean I’m lazy…it means I needed that extra hour. And not living up to this imaginary standard I have set for myself doesn’t mean I’m a failure…it means I’m learning. So the next time you feel that weight on your shoulders. That burden that presses deep down in the pit of your stomach that tells you should doing more. Doing better. Being better. Remember that it’s OK. It will always be OK. Because every struggle is a lesson in how to be the very best you can possibly be. And I whole heartedly believe that the goal is progress…not perfection.