I sat at my desk staring at the steam float past my window.  Whenever the dryer is on it looks like it is raining clouds outside.  I let myself get lost for a minute as I tried to turn my mind off.  Just staring.  Finally I brought my attention back to my computer screen and stared at the blinking cursor.  Being away from my office these last few days have my to-do lists running through my head a million miles a minute.  There’s nothing worse than your routine being interrupted and not having the time to get it back on track.  Ok…there are a lot of things that are worse than that…but you know.  So I sat…staring…trying to come up with something amazing to write about today.  Trying to push the thoughts that sometimes get stuck underneath the noise to the surface and I just couldn’t.

 

But what I ultimately decided is that it’s OK.  It’s OK to have not have it together.  It’s OK to not have the perfect words to make up the perfect post.  It’s OK to be doing laundry because you are out of clean clothes.  Like completely out.  It’s OK to give yourself a break every once in a while because no matter how much we tell ourselves we are capable of…we are still human.  Not writing a blog post that is mind-blowing doesn’t make me less of a blogger…it just means I have a million other things that are stealing my attention.  Not waking up right at 7am doesn’t mean I’m lazy…it means I needed that extra hour.  And not living up to this imaginary standard I have set for myself doesn’t mean I’m a failure…it means I’m learning.  So the next time you feel that weight on your shoulders.  That burden that presses deep down in the pit of your stomach that tells you should doing more.  Doing better.  Being better.  Remember that it’s OK.  It will always be OK.  Because every struggle is a lesson in how to be the very best you can possibly be.  And I whole heartedly believe that the goal is progress…not perfection.

 

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Somewhere between our wedding and Christmas…Gary and I have accumulated a lot of glassware.  I mean when you love to drink as much as we do, you need a different glass for each occasion.  Champagne flutes for champagne obviously.  Margarita glasses for taco nights.  Red wine glasses.  White wine glasses.  Tumblers for when we want to channel our inner Don Draper.  Moscow Mule mugs because…well…they’re just cool.  And when you live in a tiny condo in Chicago it is quite challenging to find a place for all these said glasses.  Especially when a certain someone has a mug collecting problem.  So the other day I finally got around to purging some glasses to make room for some of our Christmas presents (which I am just now putting away…don’t judge me).  As I filled a box for Goodwill, I realized out of all our glasses we don’t have more than a few matching water glasses.  Then I started thinking about the future and what if we ever wanted to throw a dinner party and have everyone have the same water glass?  Like all those perfectly set Thanksgiving tables you see on Instagram…how would we ever do that without matching water glasses?  And in that moment…as I stood on a step stool staring at 7 years of dust that has accumulated on top of them…I realized I don’t care.

 

Will we one day have dinner parties?  Most likely.  Will our guests drink water?  My guess is yes.  But will the people at my dinner party care that my water glasses aren’t matching?  Hell no.  Because they will all have very fancy cocktail glasses and as for that instagram…my Thanksgiving table will be a perfect representation of me.  Fancy when it matters…but underneath the surface…mix-matched like the best of us.

 

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Four times.  I have dodged it four times.  Every time the summons would arrive I would print out my letter explaining how I am a wedding photographer and vital to the functionality of my business…attach a wedding contract for the upcoming weekend and slap a stamp on that bad boy.  And every time I was excused.  It wasn’t until the fifth summons arrived that I realized this little dog and pony show wasn’t going to end.  So seeing as it is off season (even though there isn’t much that feels off about it) I just decided to suck it up and perform my civic duty.  Enter: Jury Duty.

 

I’m not exactly sure why I am dreading this so much but I feel like life is sending me to detention for the day.  Maybe I’m just spoiled by my ‘wear my pjs all day – make my own schedule‘ lifestyle but there is this little kid inside me that is kicking and screaming her way to jury duty today.  So I will leave you…out in the world of freedom and choices and wifi…and do my time at the Maywood Court.  And while I have watched a heck of a lot of SVU which basically makes me a professional juror…let’s all band together and pray that I get dismissed.  Early.

 

Until tomorrow…

 

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Last week when I posted the Real Me post…it was very clear that that is what you guys have been wanting.  So many people reached out saying what it meant to them and it really got me thinking.  So much so that I’ve had a hard time blogging since then.  I feel like that post kind of opened my eyes to the kind of blogger I want to be and ever since then my mind has been going a million miles an hour.  I don’t want to post a blog post just the sake of posting it.  I don’t want to put anything out there that’s not 100% me and I don’t want to ever lose sight what this blog means to me.

 

What do I want for this blog?

 

I want it to be real and inspiring.  I want it to have balance but always push readers to see the good in things.  I want a little wit…and some laughs here and there.  I want it to be honest and hopeful.  But most of all I want it be something that you…the people who have been here since day one…want to read.

 

So here’s where you come in.  I want to know what you want.  The kindsof posts you want to read from me.  They can be specific or general.  More Goose?  Or less Goose?  More photo posts?  More life posts?  Please stop talking about x, y, or z!  You can say anything!  This year is going to be full of so many new things and taking this blog to it’s next chapter is a big one.  But I can’t do it without you.  So pretty please…leave a comment…message me…mail me a letter…whatever it is and tell me what you want to read.  I promise to listen and hopefully make this blog into something truly special.  I love you all!!!!

 

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There’s something about New Year’s Eve weddings that just make them special.  Maybe it’s the anticipation or the excitement of a wedding combined with the new year…but no matter what they’re always the BEST time.  Rickey and Adam’s wedding was no different.  Despite the freezing cold temps…their whole day was filled with so much warmth and laughter and all out partying.  As their ceremony started the room was packed with so many of their family and friends.  The kind of people you just want to be around.  And as Adam walked his mom down the aisle…tears running down his face…there wasn’t a dry eye in the house.  Every ounce of their wedding was filled with so much genuine emotion it even brought a few tears to my eyes.  And made me love them even more.

 

Adam and Rickey…your guys’ wedding was one for the books.  I still think about it and smile…and I am just beyond happy for you guys!!  You are both so awesome and I am so grateful I got to be a part of your day.  It was truly unforgettable.  Thank you for not only being an amazing couple but awesome friends.  I love you both!!!!

 

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A HUGE, GIANT thank you so Tami Paige for spending New Year’s Eve with me and killing it at this wedding!  You’re the best Tami!!!

And another giant thank you to all the vendors that made this day happen:

Venue: Revolution Brewery  |  Florist: Pollen Floral  |  DJ: DJ Chicago  |  Hair/Makeup: Blush Beauty